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The fear of the unknown is a terrible thing.
It often drives me to commit to some ridiculous course of action, such as accepting a real job, which guarantees my future unhappiness even as it provides some modicum of "security."
When I'm fearing the unknown, I tend to equate "security" with "purpose." It always proves to be a dreadful mistake, and I feel myself edging closer to committing it again by the minute.
Invariably, when I'm on the vocational brink of finally doing that which I am made to do, my husband and I enter into a financial quagmire, the depths of which are likely to be plumbed in full measure unless I go land a depressing job with extraordinary benefits. The temptation to "go therefore and do likewise" is upon me again, more convincingly this time than it has been at any time in the past twenty years.
I am helpless to resist.
But, wait. I am a better woman than I was the last time I gave in to this deception. I am stronger, more resolute and (dare I say it?) more sanctified.
I understand now that there is no temptation so great that God will not also, with it, provide the way of escape. And so I will endure, steadfast, until the way of escape is made known.
Suddenly, filling out an app at the new Walmart down the road just lost its luster.
Posted by
Katy on 08/27/02 at 09:01 PM
Fallible Comments...
- Lisa, I know it like it was yesterday. I honestly didn't think "outside" work was a great idea until Kev (the baby) got his driver's license. I was a private chauffeur until then. As for a managed nutritional plan, well, I was 46 before that idea clicked! Poet's nightgowns can ease a woman through a lot of transition. I slept in one, thought about it, and highly recommend it for any stage of life.
Posted by Katy on 12/31/69 at 06:00 PM
- well, i'm not quite there yet...lower carb dieting, that is. i'm still of the chasing toddlers and grade schoolers around all the live long day age, and have no time for either much work or figuring out if what i'm eating is helping or hurting the not quite recovered midsection. ah, put on one of your poet-sleeved nightgowns and sleep on it. :)
Posted by lisa on 12/31/69 at 06:00 PM
- Lisa, Yes and these lower carb diets are more expensive. She who will not work (write), neither let her eat. Ouch.
Posted by Katy on 12/31/69 at 06:00 PM
- while you've got it in you...definitely writing. aren't starving artists more productive? ;)
Posted by lisa on 12/31/69 at 06:00 PM
- Lisa, So, should I do Walmart or Writing?
Posted by Katy on 12/31/69 at 06:00 PM
- you can do it! i say that to my kids all the time, and they just look at me funny, but you're older and wiser, right? :)
Posted by lisa on 12/31/69 at 06:00 PM
- Bridgie--I love Walmart, as you are my witness! I only don't want to work there if it's either Walmart or Writing. You see what I mean?
Posted by Katy on 12/31/69 at 06:00 PM
- Hey, don't knock the Wally World gig! It was a great job...a lot less stressful than teaching! :)
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